just a quick little post for today. i’ve come to the conclusion that blogging is hard: not make-you-break-sweat hard, but i-have-to-write-something-even-though-i-have-nothing-to-say hard.
to be completely candid, i still wistfully imagine that people check this space every day for something fresh and inspiring, so i feel guilty if i don’t do something. and so many of the bloggers that i admire and enjoy (paul wilkinson, pete wilson, and jon acuff to name of few) are shockingly prolific, and seem to post something remarkably creative every stinking day. and they make it seem so easy.
is my mania totally self-inflicted? is there something i can take for this?
anyway, i wanted to share an interesting conversation we had at bible study this past wednesday night. we were trying to determine how the pharisees got themselves woven so tightly into their web of hypocrisy and self-deception, and how we might avoid being similarly blinded to our own spiritual pride. someone brought up the idea of accountability (they are so well trained!) and the power of “doing life together” in small groups. then someone else said, “i don’t think you have to go to church to be a christian” and all the air was sucked right out of the room. he could have dropped an f-bomb and people would have been less shocked. it was one of those moments when every eye in the place locked on me (as if they expected me to rebuke this guy, or suddenly fall to the floor convulsively).
i said, “i agree. you can serve jesus and not go to church…for a while.” then i recounted the years that i saw discipleship as an individual effort, and the misery that accompanied that part of my life.
then the guy who had made the previous comment (a guest, by the way) said, “but i get everything i need from watching christian television.” i congratulated him and dismissed the meeting before some of less restrained among us lost control and laughed out loud.
i feel so sorry for people who don’t “get” church. perhaps they had a bad experience in the past, or have never connected with a group of people who understand how badly we need each other. i, for one, thank god for revealing to me the power and necessity of biblical community. and i’m grateful to the people who are helping me in my pursuit to become christlike.
you can’t get community from christian television, but you can get nausea.