i have been undone ever since i saw matt chandler’s video. more than anything else, i am freshly challenged to continue to pry myself open before god. it feels like that the more i perceive, the more i try to hide. the more i receive, the more conflicted i become.
matt chandler reminded me to measure carefully what matters and what doesn’t.
the fact is that, except for kingdom purposes, life does not matter. this existence (james describes it as a mist) is gestation…preparation for “life.” and we (the church) know that and believe that. why, then, are we so intent on making this “mist” better? why are we so ambitious and self-absorbed and neurotic? why are we so in love with luxury and comfort and convenience? i am sick to death of me (my agendas…my appetites). i am disgusted by my yearning for validation and my need for recognition. and my incessant striving.
by god’s grace, i am dying. my vigorous, rapacious flesh continues to seek an audience, but it’s power over me is diminishing. by faith, i have adopted a new set of values and aspirations. if i may be so bold as to borrow the words of matt chandler, “he’s enough.”